tbh generally my feelings on most super mario ships is generally "cute" yknow? im very chill bout em, like go have fun
I still need to clean the lines but I think (?) I got the colors for Caelestis now, and put them on his ref... also feat. sketchy eyes and words written with my finger bc I don't have my stylus.
...That's character reference 3 of 6, technically, though the other refs are either not drawn by me (since the character was a gift) or kinda old, but it's fine lol. Glad to have another one down, even if not clean...
Called it, Lane just did poorly on a maths test. I told her it would happen and she just refused to believe me. Ha!
She underperformed but I still can't get her to feel bad about it... Why am I failing with this? It's my job!
I'm big pissed about the whole world pissing and shitting on sword and shield when we don't even have the game yet.
Maybe it's because I've kept myself away from all new content reveals since galarian Ponyta, but I'm sick of everything and everyone being extremely reactionary, in a lot of cases spreading wildly misrepresented information, condemning gamefreak as a demon murdering their only child and then going 'huff I'm gonna buy the game anyway'.
I feel like it's just an extension of a culture that already exists and is super prevalent at the moment, but it's the first game I've involved myself with since Diamond and Pearl if only because I finally can and everyone's bitching is draining on my excitement. I'm damn happy I've isolated myself from any new news, ngl, but people keep ragging on Gamefreak as if they're some depraved company that's truly struck a low blow to us. I feel like I'm the only fucking person left who has a memory longer than 3 years and still has at least a modicum of faith that sculpted my childhood.
So there was talk about aspecting in the postfurry discoard the other day (aspecting as I understand it is purposefully taking on an identity to take on personality characteristics that are more useful for life or a situation).
I want to do the thing, and it's a lot like some of the original idea I had for my like 5+fursonas when I first really got into the fandom. Each was based on a part of me. I never really went too far with it, but now I'm wondering if I should revisit?
My species ID is a shapeshifter so giving Myself different forms for certain situations wouldn't even be that weird???
I donno, still thinking on it. Might bring it up in counciling ifni have time, she seems like she would grok the idea fairly easily.
I'm swinging and thinking
Lost and feeling
Undecided on most everything
Determining the inkling
Who is wanted and needed
Most all are conceited
My inner optimist demanded
No omens succeeded
An icoherent mess
Tingling boney carcass
Stinking bodies will assess
Peeling off the dress
#Tw #Dnr #poem #I'm sick and I'm listening to many thoughts at once #nothing I post today will make sense #but later i may go through and use some of this for actual song building #I'm mostly okay #i just have fever i think #I'll tag these as tw just in case my dissascociation and werid....what ever is going rn bothers anyone2 notes
When I'm no longer confined to mobile I'll finally be able to reblog all the posts that I've been opening but not rbing because it's hard on mobile!!
Also fun fact you can tell if I'm on mobile or not because if my tags start with a capital my device does that automatically, but my computer doesn't
Oof still not over the kinda fear i get whenever i make posts that are like saying something to ppl? Like stuff for a big public eye, you get me? People like paying attention to my words in that way makes me so like nervous, aha!! So many eyes on me... I gotta remember tho that ppl here are nicer and chillier than other sites. People are likely not gonna yell at me maybe, heh...
Short venty thing
Tw for anxiety talk
Just rip my anxiety hasn't been very good today. Sucks. Tried getting referred to a therapist but the receptionist's at my GPs medical practice are so sucky. Couldn't get my name right even though it's on the system and of course. I have to say. They were pretty rude to me so I just left. So no idea what to do-
a friend suggesting that i might have bpd just kinda like, clicked something in my mind for me? i dont know why i never rlly...thought about it when i have a majority of the key symptoms n_n
im just...im wary w self-dx bcuz i dont want ppl to get on my ass about it but i cant,, afford therapy and i get so scared when talking to people because of my undiagnosed mental illnesses because of how i can come across
Getting Anxiety about coming into waterfall now... Don't really want to lose a decent site because of this but I'm kind of terrified to come on now bc I'm scared the old hate from Tumblr is just gonna start up again bc I'm gonna find a way to piss someone off bc that's what I'm good at doing evidently
guys, I need help right now.
it's about my niece, I'm really worried about her. (violence and sh tw)
the way my sister spoke about her, it's like my niece is exactly how I was when I was her age, though I think she might even be a bit _more_ violent and it's starting younger than it did for me. it's gotten so bad that my nephew and sister are staying somewhere else tonight just to get a break. sister says she might come downstairs to talk.
and I kind of want to ask my niece to come down and talk to me because the NHS is doing fuck all. my family's waiting for a pediatric therapist to get back to them. it's a lot more difficult to get mental health care up here. and my niece can't talk to anyone because my sister took her phone off her since she's been misbehaving.
sister says she's been self harming and god, I really think it's because she saw my scars last year.
right now I'm in the living room, she's upstairs in her bedroom. it's 10Pm and my sister/nephew left. should I go upstairs and ask if she wants to talk? she's been really quiet and I don't think she'll come down by herself.